"The anticipation is driving my stomach nuts right now, but it's a good type of nuts.." She laughs softly and leans in to kiss him, which seems to be one of the ways to calm the nerves that want to fly around her insides and tie them all up in knots. It would be a beautiful shiburi design she's sure if it were only tied up on the outside, but sadly all the red ropes and lovely knots were wound up inside her as they anticipated the ceremony that would join her to the love of her lifetime.
Extending the kiss into something deeper, Natasha takes her time with it. It's like every single time she runs her tongue through Loki's mouth, there's a new depth, new flavor to him. He's full of life, and hidden things, velvety richness, dark chocolate covered cherries, and a swirl of brandy by candlelight. Her legs slide along his while they kiss, body unable to accept anything but the ultimate in closeness. It is painful to love this deeply, to need this fully. It's a thirst that won't be quenched, an ache that can't be filled. Breaking the kiss, she moans softly. "I don't think I shall ever grow tired of being a part of you. This is what I've been missing my whole life and I have no idea how I didn't even realize it." Her lips graze over his chin and down his throat.
"Thank you for trusting me, for loving me enough for this. I want to share everything with you. I couldn't imagine doing any of this without you, preparing our lives together is a thing I want to do with you, every single step. I trust you with my all as well, and if you were to take over I'd feel perfectly safe in knowing that no matter what happened would be perfect because what matters most, is us. You and me." Natasha ran her hands over his shoulder, and down his side, cupping his ass. Her fingers gripped at it tightly, holding him close to her.
"You are the only one that could love me like this. I only know part of your life, I can't wait for you to tell me more. Tell me love, how did you start your journey between here and there? What more should I know before we wed?" Her words are almost breathless, but she's trying to distract herself, to keep herself from engaging in other activities just yet. They have so much more to talk about and she really does want to learn more.
“I do hope it is good.” He huffs out a laugh. He knows what she means though. It feels as though there are a thousand butterflies flying around inside him. It’s not like he’s never been nervous or excited before, but this feels different, bigger and just more. Loki has never been more excited for anything in his life. Just knowing that by tomorrow at this time they will be joined for all eternity is overwhelming, but in the best possible way. Still, he wants to tease her a bit. “Are you sure you haven’t changed your mind? Realized you are too good for me?”
But then she kisses him and he can’t help but melt into it. His lips move slowly against hers, opening up to her so they can taste each other. Loki moves in closer, wrapping his arms around her more tightly so they are flush together as the kiss deepens. It’s like he’s addicted to her, like he can’t possibly imagine ever not having her around again and the only way to keep her is to keep her as close as possible. She feels soft and pliant against him, as if they mesh together perfectly, and he supposes that is the truth. There is no one else for him, and he plans on spending the rest of time showing her exactly how much she means to him.
“Sometimes these things are not for us to know right away. We need to be at certain points in our development before the truly important relationships can develop correctly. If we had come together at any other point in time, it might not have worked and that is not a world I wish to experience.” His head tilts back as he feels her lips on his throat and he sighs happily, a smile on his face.
“I think for us it is best that we do all these things together. We each have our strengths and putting those together will surely create the greatest celebration of a union anyone might ever see, even the parts meant only for us.” So far, he believes they are doing a fine job of it as well. Her style and wants for the ceremony fit his own perfectly, and really, he wants nothing more than for her to have her dream wedding.
If anything, Loki understands the need for distraction, and yet he does nothing but moan and gently kiss her neck for a moment when she grabs his ass. “Well,” he starts, speaking between gentle kisses. “It all started for me when I noticed something strange happen as I was being taken away after you stopped my attack on New York City. It seems some of the Avengers had travelled in time, and as luck would have it, the result ended up with the Tesseract simply lying at my feet, ripe for the taking.”
At his question about changing her mind, she laughs and reaches over to tug at his hair playfully. There's no world in which she could ever change her mind about him, or the way she loves him, madly, truly, deeply. "I hardly think so. I think you're the one that might have evolved beyond me, my love. I could never love anyone more. You are the one I want to wed and spend all my life with, our eternity together." She says the word like she can actually fathom what it means, but it's nothing a human whose life has been so limited until now can even begin to wrap her head around. For now, she'll take each day as it comes and it looks like the rest of them will be wrapped up together with Loki, and that's the best feeling ever.
While she knows and they have already talked about them meeting at the right time for the both of them. It still feels so remarkable that their fates twisted up to put them together here and now. It had been such a crazy time. They've been working so hard to prepare for Thanos, and what's to come. Yet now she has a higher calling. It's not something that she can rightly fathom. A part of her knows that she still has a part to play in her world, but she's not exactly sure how that will work, as she moves on to become a guardian of time with Loki. It is something they can talk about later.
Rubbing her fingers over his ass, she enjoys the way it feels and knows that one day soon she wants to enjoy it fully the way he enjoyed hers. It's another thing to talk about. "Time travel, huh. I wonder why we were doing that. It must be a thing from the future, because I'm certain I would have been alerted, or would have cracked into the Avenger's database and seen it." She doesn't let it bother her at all. She knows that he's seen time in various forms, so if there's a variation of what happens, it's a twist she looks forward to. "So, back at the old tesseract arrest, huh? What did you do with it just laying there. You picked it up, didn't you. That's what I would have done." It's the smartest move. Getting the fuck out of there with the tesseract. "You're such a wonderful little snake." She kisses him on the nose, knowing he's full of trouble, as he is everything else. "That's a different story from the one we know...Huh. So, is that how you broke time, or whatever it was you did? or I guess we broke time, cause we messed it up and put it at your feet, didn't we."
His laugh is soft but honest as she pulls at his hair. He truly loves this, how well they get on together. It is proving even more that this is more than just physical. When he really thinks about it, this is everything he’s always wanted. Someone he could lay around with, cuddle and joke and just talk. He’s never felt like he’s had someone he could trust this way before, but it’s like second nature when it comes to Natasha. “I cannot express how happy I am that you wish to spend eternity with me. It is not an easy thing to accept, but I will be forever grateful for your company.” As much as he knew that his job was necessary, and how he has always known it is what he must do, the loneliness is hard to contend with. But that is no longer a problem, not now he has the most wonderful woman in existence by his side.
And truly, Loki knows just how important Natasha is in hers and many timelines. He has no intention of keeping her from those duties. Simply because the multiverse exists and she will now help guard it with him does not mean she has nothing to wrap up in her own world. He also knows what awaits her, but that is not his story to tell. What he does know is that what will appear like an end to her friends and family will be just the beginning for her. However that happens in her timeline, it doesn’t matter. She will come home to him, always. But he will not further influence her decisions. Even with their souls tied together, she is still her own person and will always be.
The way she touches him makes him grin. He’s having the same thoughts as she is and he is very interested. It might be something for another time, but that doesn’t stop Loki from pushing his ass back into her hand.
“I am sure you will find out what was happening, but I am not one for spoilers.” He’s only partially joking, of course, but he still doesn’t plan on telling her anything of her own future in detail. It’s not his job to affect timelines, only to make sure they have the chance to survive. “And yes, of course I picked it up. I was still very much the villain you knew me as at that point, even if the effects of the mind stone had left me. I was thinking much more clearly, but that does not mean I would not take a chance to get away from the fate I figured was coming.” He grins at the kiss and laughs slightly. “Yes, that was my nexus event, though apparently, what the Avengers did was not considered the breaking of time. In how things worked at the time, it was supposed to happen. I was just not supposed to escape. Winning was not what I was meant to do. At least then.”
It's true that their personalities really do compliment one another. There's nothing more that Natasha would like better than to sit around talking and making love to Loki for an eternity. He's playful and they have the most wonderful time teasing one another. She doesn't quite understand the width and breath of what he does yet-- but she gathers that he is eternal and she will be as well. Somehow they will watch over time, watch the people of the world. It's nothing she understands yet. She hasn't even heard of the time bureau yet or the time keepers, but she will. People watching has been her job so far in life, and it will certainly be an important one for as long as she continues.
"I am looking forward to what this life together brings us. You are the only person I could ever see spending my eternity with." She's honest and forthcoming. There's an openness in her eyes for him that she's never had with another soul. Perhaps her world was what she cherished before, but she is willing to let go of that path now and seek the one that they have together. She imagines that her timeline probably took a branch the day they made love. She might ask him about it when they make it around to such a topic again. Certainly this wasn't where her life was supposed to go, how her death and future are predicted. Wouldn't that make her a variant as well now? She doesn't quite know how it all works, but she will learn. She's pretty quick at it.
As they talk, her hands wander, the hand on his ass continues to play. When he pushes against her palm, she has no qualms about teasing him further. Her finger is dry and so it can't do much, but she does part his cheeks and run it along the line of them. She pauses at his entrance, and lets it dimple inward briefly. There aren't many men who enjoy such things, but with the way he reacted-- her testing is casual and easy. He can certainly pull away if he wishes.
"I'm sure, but I have a feeling that what we've done already creates a gap." She postulates, not worrying about any future of hers, because she knows that she is safe with Loki as it is. "I did say you were a snake, didn't I." She says with love in her voice, because whoever he was, she's been there too. "Who wants to be arrested, I mean, really. Nexus event. That's a new term. I'll remember it. You start to turn things around, at least from what Thor says. I mean, it's enough that I made the choice to talk to you, to approach you and look what happened. I found an entirely different you. I didn't even know." She leans in to kiss him softly, and then pulls back. "So, where did you go after that? What happened, that's the exciting part of all this, yes?"
There of course will be time for those days. Days when they do nothing but spend time with each other, days when they never leave bed and do nothing but talk and laugh and make love. But the rest of the time he is actually looking forward to showing her, to telling her all about the TVA and how everything works. For the first time since his ascension, he feels proud of what he does without the crushing blow of loneliness he thought he was going to have to endure for the rest of time itself. Now he looks forward to everything they will do together, everything they will accomplish.
“And I am looking forward to showing you everything. Having you by my side is nothing short of a miracle and together we will preserve all life. I could not see doing this with anyone else.” She is correct about that. Their unification has definitely caused a new branch. One where it is possible that she will not go back to be the sacrifice for the soul stone. Of course, if she wishes to fulfil that destiny, Loki will not stop her. Rather she would simply come to him after her death on the timeline. Otherwise, that branch will do as all others do and find another way to survive. And really he wouldn’t be adverse to helping it along to make sure their mission is still successful.
The last thing he wants to do is pull away. Personally, he disagrees that most men wouldn’t enjoy such treatment. Rather he believes they are afraid of what it might mean to their fragile egos. Of course, he understands that not everyone likes everything when it comes to such personal things, but not liking simply because of being male… well that is expressed by men who have yet to find their prostates.
He blinks slowly and hums as she tests him, his breath coming out in slow pants as he tries to keep his mind on the conversation. He’d be lying though if he said the test wasn’t turning him on. He does nothing more than rock back against her hand again, still attempting to keep things casual.
“You are not wrong, but it is not anything that will cause issues, not anymore.” He grins at the snake comment and presses a kiss to her cheek. “And yes. I suppose it is not just my brother who has an affinity for snakes. Nexus event is the term for when a person makes a decision that causes a branch big enough on the timeline that a whole new timeline comes into existence. My purpose was to be arrested and taken to Asgard, when I did not do that, I was arrested by a completely different authority. But I will get to that in a moment. Thor is correct. It took quite some time and for much to happen, but in the natural course of things, I did redeem myself. I am simply not a version of me that experienced that specific course of events. I am aware of them though.”
“Oh, and do remind me to thank my brother for that. If it is because of his words that you spoke with me, then he played no small part in bringing us together.”
There's no more life that she wishes for herself beyond what they are creating together. Natasha will be content to allow whatever happens with the rest of her time to be done by whatever person follows after her wedding with Loki. She still has no true understanding of how exactly it works, but she assumes that it will for the pair of them. They will break into a line and exchange their vows and then exit to live the rest of their lives together. She can watch her fated existence in the same manner this Loki has.
The night continues to play on as they talk and love, ever growing closer to the sunrise of a new day-- their day. One that both of them will forever hold in memorandum. It gives Natasha even more reason to want to be close to Loki in every way possible, even if she's only toying with him now. It places in her mind limits of things that might happen between them in the future. She wants to be everything he needs and wants in the bedroom, and while she can't change her gender, she can certainly pleasure him to the best of her ability.
"You are so hot. God." She can't help herself when he pushes back against her finger. It makes her own heart jump in her chest and a new fire spark below. She can ignore it, but it's hard with their legs so tangled together and their bodies so close. "I'm glad that we won't create any issues. I would hate to have to worry about us causing problems for you back at where you are now. No matter who you are, or what happened to you, you are the man I love, the heart I adore. I can feel it and all that you are so much deeper than I've ever felt another person. So, whether you lived that life or another one. I'm glad that it brought us together."
She laughed softly. "We can thank him at the wedding, together." She nuzzled against him, and pressed her lips softly against his. "So, after you were taken away what happened. Who took you?"
If that is what she truly desires, then it is what she shall have. Loki now has two purposes in life, to maintain the timelines and to treat Natasha with all the love and adoration she deserves. Together, he knows they will not only keep everything running smoothly, but they will also improve on how everything works. With her, he knows they can accomplish anything and he is looking forward to it all.
Really, he couldn’t ask for anything more. Just that they can do this. Lie around in each other’s arms, talking about the future, their future, laughing and loving and simply being together. Until that night when he’d decided to message her, wanting her to know that he is sorry for the things he did in their shared past, he’d been almost desperate for some companionship. He has some contact with the TVA, but with Mobius’ retirement, he hasn’t felt overly close to anyone there. He is happy for his friend, but he also misses having someone to talk to. Or rather he missed, past tense, but Natasha is that for him now and so much more.
He really could never thank her enough, or show her just how much he truly cares for her.
She truly does not have to worry about not pleasing him physically. He can’t imagine being more satisfied than he already is in her bed. The fact that she is willing to do more only proves that point. Even if she is not interested in trying such things with him, how they have been with each other this night alone is proof enough that she is everything he will ever need. When it comes down to it, Loki falls in love with people, not their gender.
Loki chuckles lightly and presses his face into the pillow. He’s not unaware that some find him attractive, but he’s unsure anyone has said it quite so bluntly to his face before. He absolutely adores it. “No,” he says, turning his face back to look at her again. “There is nothing to worry about at all, my love. I cannot tell you how happy I am to hear you say all of that. I have worked very hard to improve myself and to know that I might be worthy of you has brought me to new heights. I have never felt so connected to anyone before. That you feel the same is more than I ever could’ve hoped for.”
“I’m sure he will be delighted to hear it.” Thor always was a bit of a romantic. Loki savours their kiss some before continuing. “I was taken by the Time Variance Authority, or more simply, the TVA. They are an organization that exists outside of time and at that point their purpose was to maintain what they called the Sacred Timeline. Essentially, there was no multiverse because they prevented the main timeline from branching off into new possibilities. They were all under the impression that this was necessary to prevent a multiversal war. Anyone who did something to cause a branch, a nexus point, were rounded up and brought in. As you can imagine, me escaping Thor’s custody was a pretty large deviation.”
It's a wonder that she could be here talking about a future with anyone, and she can't wait to be an actual part of that future much longer. She can't wait to see what challenges await them, what will be in store for them as they grow and change in the future. Knowing that he will take his time to love her and put her as a priority in his life when he is the overseer of so incredibly much tells Natasha more than she needs to know about him. It makes her heart soar, and it makes her feel even more special than she ever thought she could be to another person once more.
Watching Loki press his face into the pillow makes Natasha laugh softly with him. He's so beautiful, and maybe he knows a part of it, but because she's fallen so deeply for him it only makes him that much more attractive to her. There is not another male or female out there that will ever compare to the star that he is in her sky. Nuzzling against his shoulder, his neck, she curls under his chin and inhales deeply, breathing Loki in and making him the very air she needed to survive. He was her salvation, her world, inside and out and there was nothing that would change that. "You are so much to me, and I still keep wanting to pinch myself to make sure all this is real. I mean, morning can't come soon enough. I need to be bound to you already."
Sighing softly, she lifted her head so she could look at him, taking in all the closeness implied by the way they kiss one another. She laughed again, shaking her head. "You caused a hell of a ruckus with that I'm sure. So they arrested you? I mean, if that's what they do. Does it happen a lot? Do people screw up the timeline a lot? I know we are, but wow.. I never thought about it..."
If there was one thing that Loki has learned is that life in and of itself is a wonder. It takes such a strange course of events to cause certain things together. Loki has seen many versions of himself now and most of them were not as lucky as he has been. Of course, most of them did not attempt any sort of redemption or salvation as he did. He doesn’t know if that makes him any better or worse, but it is definitely an example of how anything can happen. He also knows that if anyone is up to handling things like that by his side, it is Natasha. She has done nothing but prove that in her time on the Sacred Timeline, and if he’s honest, all the timelines she exists in. It is truly and honour and a privilege that she would devote her time to him and he is not about to take her for granted.
He doesn’t know about being beautiful, especially next to someone as exquisite as she is. Again, he’s aware that some find him attractive, but to him beauty is so much more than looks. Natasha isn’t just gorgeous to look at, she’s beautiful inside. Loki is aware that she might not know that based on some of her history, but he’ll make it one of his goals to show her just how beautiful she is. He knows just how much she has devoted to making things better in her world, how much she has done for friends and family and really, her universe at large. She is truly an outstanding person that he could not be any less proud of.
As she curls into him, he shifts and wraps an arm around her, holding her close. He feels so at peace in her arms, and he knows that she will always be home to him. No matter what their future may hold, she will be his constant. “I feel the same, my love. I almost wish I felt tired so we could pass the time more quickly by sleeping, but I feel more energized than ever before. I am a buzz with excitement and how much I love you.”
Turning with her as she shifts, Loki smiles at her in return. “Yes, they arrested me. And it is what they did at the time. It was a fairly common occurrence, though it was more common for certain types. As you can imagine, someone like myself is more apt to go against the grain, as it were. I met plenty of my own variants, but I imagine you would not be surprised that I did not see a single Steve Rogers.”
Laying next to him, Natasha wishes she could wind time in a ball and toss it into the wind so that it would be morning already and they would be one in an even closer manner than they were now. All the plans have stirred into motion so many thrilling feelings and she's never felt more alive, even during combat. That's something that she's never been able to say before and here she is able to admit to the fact that love is truly the most powerful force in the universe.
Pressing her breasts against his chest, she finds comfort in the hardness of his body and in the way he's sculpted against her curves. Their legs curve together perfectly, and she knows that they will always match together in every other aspect as well. No matter what they do, it will always be this way. "I'm sure if we get bored, we'll manage to make it pass more quickly. I have my stories, but somehow I have this feeling that you know them. At least most of my barriers are gone. You've melted them all away." She kissed along the edges of his lips, and then down along his chin and across his chest where she'd been resting her head. He was beautiful because she loved him, and in her eye that was all that mattered. He could have been an ogre and she still would have found him as beautiful as a golden sun.
She laughed against his skin. "Steve. I bet he might have changed a few timelines after he went after Peggy. I still think there has to be at least one where he didn't leave Bucky." She always wondered if he would have stayed if Bucky asked him to. They had done so much for one another, and their friendship was sometimes beyond that of two friends, platonic soulmates she often thought of them. "Not that it matters. So, you were a wild and crazy thing, and had a thrilling ride through the timelines? Meeting yourself? That had to be awkward."
There’s a small part of Loki that wants to break his own rules and just walk them through a timedoor to the next morning, but that could cause a whole host of problems, not the least of them being getting the attention of B-15. He really appreciates all the former hunter does for the TVA, but he also doesn’t want to annoy her. No one should ever want to annoy her. And Loki doesn’t want to do anything to jeopardize his and Natasha’s plans. If that means waiting a few hours, then that’s what they would do.
He sighs, contented as he feels her press against him. There truly is no better feeling that lying there with her, entwined and relaxed as they talk of their plans and their future together. “I cannot imagine being bored with you around, but I do imagine there are ways to make the time pass more quickly.” Plenty of fun and interesting ways, he’s quite sure. “I do know your stories, but I do not know them from your perspective. I would love to hear your thoughts on anything you wish to tell me about.” It wasn’t the same, seeing something from a distance and getting someone’s personal view. He also thinks that it would help him know her even better, if that is even possible.
“You would think so, but apparently all of that was ‘supposed’ to happen.” The quotes are practically audible in his tone. Mostly Loki has let his issues with He Who Remained go, but it still bothers him just a little bit that the Avengers were allowed certain concessions that others were not. But that is why he does what he does. So that everyone has the same options and opportunities without the threat of a multiversal war. “Oh, there are plenty now where he doesn’t leave Bucky. Sometimes they simply remain friends, others where they are more. It is quite interesting. Plenty I had not expected from the Captain. I was glad to find he has so much more going on inside him that it appears on the outside. He laughs then and nods. “It was more frustrating than awkward. I really did not know how annoying I can be.”
Breaking rules is unequivocally the easiest thing in the world to do, and they've both done it too many times in their lives and know far too well the devil is in the details and the details all go to hell when the rules end up broken. Things never quite end up how things are meant to when the laws of the universe are broken, unless for some fated reason they're meant to be. Then there are surprises in store-- but usually there are a LOT of things that must be resolved before then. Natasha already learned that over and over in her life, and her death would be the ultimate resolve to all the guilt and weight that she carried if she'd never met Loki like this and departed from her time line.
In this direction, he was the match to her soul and somehow lifted her from the mire of her life. He allowed her to see that she could move beyond that without dying a death for the universe. She found a purpose and meaning that would allow her to remove all that sticky red business from her ledger within him, and he filled her without a second thought. Already within him, she felt more pure than she had ever found herself feeling before. Maybe it was because they'd both been through it, and they were perfect for one another. Their bodies knew it and their love did, because it would encompass so much.
"Then I will start from the beginning. My father gave me away to the Red Room, sold me rather so that I could train to become a soviet spy, a super soviet spy. They took advantage of me in every way imaginable. They used my body, my mind, and my preyed on my emotions. I became the ultimate actor, seductress, and killer from a young age. They used their equipment to give me false memories, some I still have here in my brain. I know how to dance like a ballerina, although I never was one. They killed my mother for the simple act of looking for me." She moved against him, finding it easier to tell the story if he was even more flush against her body, as if they could be any closer. Maybe it would be easier if he was already inside her. Running her body against his, Nat sighed softly.
"And you, you broke time and then put it back together again? Did you almost destroy the world while you were fixing it. I know you had to have gotten in trouble once you got to the time agency. That's the only way any one could ever reform you the way they have." Natasha was carefully wise, and brushed her fingers through his hair, laughing a little when he mentioned how annoying he could be. "We can all be annoying when we choose to, my love."
Breaking the rules could be fun. If anyone knew that, it was definitely Loki. But what breaking the rules never did was get you what you wanted or needed. Breaking the rules was something fun for kids. Sneaking out after curfew, drinking before you were allowed, skipping class. In general, rather harmless and let you have a little fun. What didn’t work was breaking rules for the important things. That is a lesson that is much harder to learn, and he’s sure both he and Natasha caused a lot of issues while they did so.
But they had, and as a result, they had both learned and grown and now they got to impart their wisdom on the whole multiverse, even if most people never knew what they did for them. Loki didn’t need that kind of recognition anymore and he suspects that Natasha never did.
What he does suspect though, is that they both were good people underneath it all and always had been. He has just as much red in his ledger as she does, they only came about it differently. In fact, he thinks she has always been a much better person than he has been. A lot of what brought the red for Loki was his own spoiled nature. Sure, there had been reasons behind some of his actions. Odin and even Frigga had not been faultless in how Loki had acted, but Loki also now knew how to take responsibility for his own actions. It’s one of the many reasons why he thrives in his current role. It’s finally a chance for him to truly redeem himself.
Something he knows Natasha wants as well, even if he doesn’t think she needs it, not after all she has done for the Earth as an Avenger.
She doesn’t need to ask, he pulls her closer without even thinking about it as she tells her story. He knew the basics, that she was a Russian spy, and had been trained from a very young age, but that her father had sold her, or her mother was killed for trying to find her. Those things Loki had not gone looking for. He was fully capable of seeing the lives of anyone and everyone he knew, but mostly he let everyone keep their privacy, only looking in on his friends every now and then, ostensibly to keep an eye on them, but really because he missed them.
”Is it wrong that I would like to find the right place in time and murder your father for such a crime?” He knows full well that he wouldn’t have Natasha like this if such things had not happened, but he also hates the idea of anyone hurting her. He also has a mind to go blow up a couple of Red Rooms. And not just for her, but for everyone they tortured like that.
Loki laughs then, relaxing again as the topic of their conversation changes back to that of the TVA. “Of course I almost broke time. On more than one occasion really, but really most of my redemption is due to one person. Apparently, all I needed was one person to believe in me. Though I still very much tested him. It also didn’t hurt being taken away from everyone and everything that had me feeling as I did. That separation allowed me to clear my mind and figure out what I actually wanted and believed. Strange how these things work, isn’t it?”
It's good that they were so much more alike than different in many aspects. He might see her in a brighter light than she saw herself, but truly her heart doesn't feel like it would be judged an equal weight against a feather on Anubis's scales. The only reason she'd say that Loki might feel more is because he has the weight of living a far longer life than she has. If she'd been alive so long, she can't imagine the damage one like her might have done. She's still a killer, even if it is done under the guise of 'good'.
Giving it all up to work and somehow maintain the balance of the universe sounds magical to Natasha. It is a way to bring about wonder in her life while relinquishing the bonds that have held her tight for so long.
"My father is long gone, I think. I don't even know his name. He's not a man to me. No one raised me. I have no father. I have no mother, only a sister. My sestrah, Yelena. She is my home in this earth, aside from you. It is okay though. I am certain she will be happy for me. We only spent three years together as a spy family even if she didn't know. I - I was pulled from that life by Barton, that's why he and I were close, why he was so fucking special to me. We had a night in a sewer. I- I knew I felt something for him then, but I knew he wanted a family, and I couldn't ever give him that.
My love changed across time, to that of a best friend, and I knew I'd never truly love as one might deserve anything - that's why you challenged all that, changed all that." She'd already blown up the Red Room as it was, and freed the majority of the widows like her all over the world when she did. It had taken a lot of work, and almost killed her, but she managed with the help of her pseudo-family.
"You could do it if anyone." She nuzzles him, and kisses him softly, cupping his cheek. "I'm so proud of you. So you found your person then? Who is this mysterious person who believed in you? It's a wondrous story for certain."
Perhaps that was what made them such a good team, such good partners, in life and love. They had much in common, yes, but they also could see so much good in the other, and were able to lift each other up, inspire and show them just how good they were. It could only lead to good, at least that’s what Loki thought. It was possible that Natasha living a shorter life changed that balance, but Loki didn’t think so. She was the way she was because of others in her life. Loki had done the things he’d done because he’d been a spoiled brat. Things had not been made better by his parents’ lies, but that didn’t mean he had to act as he had.
Or at least that was how it seemed until he’d found out about Kang’s plan for him. If anyone were truly to blame, it was him. Even if most of his variants had acted much worse, Loki knew that if he’d tried to be better sooner, he just would’ve been found by the TVA much earlier.
“I know. I just hate that someone that should care for you instead caused you such strife.” There, of course, was also the part where Loki has some daddy issues still, but he didn’t think of it like that at the moment. “You are a wonderful person, strong and dedicated. Not just anyone would be able to turn themselves around as you did, even if it did take some help. We all need help sometimes. But to think anyone treated you like that and put you in such a place. It fills me with anger.”
Loki quieted as Natasha spoke of Clint. Guilt filled him as he remembered so clearly how he had used him for his own misdeeds. Even if much of that had been due to the staff and Thanos, Loki knew he’d played his own part there. He’d hardly fought when the Other had found him after his fall from the Bifrost. A true hero would have.
“I am truly sorry for what I did to your friend. I do hope you know that. I hope it does not affect him attending our wedding.” And not just because he wanted everyone who loved Natasha to come celebrate with her, but because he wished to apologize to the man face to face.
Loki held her closer as she asked of Mobius. He did miss his friend dearly. “His name is Mobius and he is the last person you might expect I would be friends with. He appears rather boring, stiff and stuck in his ways, but there is so much more to him. I hope you will be able to meet him soon. I would love to have him stand by my side during our more public ceremony.” Loki would tell her anything and everything about his friend that night. How he was the first person to really believe him and believe in him. In some ways, he had been like a real father to him, but mostly Loki just considered him the best friend anyone could have.
Perhaps that's why love is often interred in infinity symbols, because the heart sees the infinite possibilities in the other person. While Loki saw Natasha's childhood and wanted to raise arms against those who hurt her, and gave credit for the strength she willed to turn her life around, Natasha saw so much the same in the life that Loki lived. He had gone through many feats of endurance, and tragedies that people with hearts far greater might have given up, and given into the darkness that surrounded him, and the temptations of power and magic that was offered.
It was easy to take the cup and drink from it, and while Loki did it here and there, it was often with the driving need to be truly taken seriously, to be loved and noticed as the other members in his family did Thor. Natasha could see his heart now, and knew that there were light and dark in them both and for various reasons. However, the light cast out the seeds of darkness that had been sewn by lesser forces. Their demons played well together, as did their angels.
They fit so perfectly, their eternities were fated to wind together forever in a never ending loop of love, one to see the other as strong and the other there to help protect that what made them so. "I feel so much the same, my love. I dare say that I want to hurt those who cast you aside, who told you that you were anything less than the amazing man that I know you are. You are intelligent, cunning, and wise, even when you wish to ignore it at times." She teased him about the last part with a nose to his cheek. God she loved him.
Stroking her hand along his hip in a dancing circle, Natasha watched her fingers as he spoke of his regrets about Clint. She shook her head. The past was the past, and they both had their fingers in things they'd done wrong. "He will see and know that you are not the same. If I love you like this, he will know and stand at my side the same way your Mobius will stand beside yours."
Natasha had no strong female friends, and she'd rather have Clint at her side in her wedding over anyone else. The story of how Loki came to meet and know Mobius was incredible, and his time spent finding his purpose was terrifying, but also awe inspiring. If Natasha didn't already love him, she grew to love him more. "So, what happened then, in the end? Explain that part to me again? I don't get it all..." It was a little confusing -- the hows and whys of how he exactly saved the universes and ended up governing them all. She also was curious about her part in all this now.
Loki would appreciate such thoughts about him, but he doesn’t think they are warranted. He did give into the power. He had attacked Stuttgart and New York because Thanos had told him he could rule. He had taken the staff to have more power, to control the Chitauri. Though apparently he unknowingly had much of those powers already. He knows now that the staff had affected him, it had made him more susceptible to persuasion, something he had not previously thought possible. But infinity stones out in the world were nothing to trifle with.
He had also given into the darkness the moment he’d let go of the Bifrost bridge, letting the Void take him. He’d believed, in that moment when it had become clear that Odin could never see his side, that he was nothing but a burden to his family and that letting go would be better than the eternity he would spend in the cells of Asgard.
She was right though. Deep down, those were the root causes of his reactions. His desperate need to be as loved and respected as his brother. It had always been a foolish pursuit though, he simply had not known it. Not that it would have mattered at all, not with how the TVA had been running things at the time.
As she speaks of what she sees in him, he can’t help but pull her closer, burying his face in her hair as he feels tears prick at his eyes. How long as he waited to hear such words? Mobius had started it by telling him he could be good, or anything he wanted to be, and Natasha has finished it with words that grip his heart, making him feel more loved than he ever could’ve expected. “I could not love you anymore than I do in this moment, my dear. I… thank you. You do not know what your words mean to me.”
He pulls back then, giving her a bit of a watery smile as she speaks of Clint. “I do hope you are right. I was truly awful to him and I would not expect him to forgive me. I hope one day to be able to show him just how much I have changed though.”
With a nod, he begins to explain, this time in detail. He goes over how Mobius recruited him from Renslayer’s court, and all about Sylvie and everything she’d been doing. His betrayal of Mobius when he had no other option, discovering the truth of the TVA. How the Time Keepers were not real. The pain he’d felt when Mobius had been pruned right in front of him just after he’d finally believed. And so on, the fight with Kang and Sylvie, his journey back to the TVA, the time slipping. He left out no detail, including the sacrifice he’d made and how hard it had been to watch Mobius and Sylvie’s reaction as they realized what he was to do. And how much harder it had been to turn away and begin his job.
“It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. It took a long time, if you can count it as time, for me to be able to do things like coming to visit you here. I have not brought myself to speak with any of them again as there is only one I can bring back with me, and I do not wish to disrupt their lives further. I only hope they are not too upset when I invite them to our wedding.”
While Natasha knows of some of Loki's deeds, and the bits of his life that he's gone through she doesn't know the secrets of his darkest moments, the most painful things that he holds in his mind or his heart. She would yank them from his very soul if she could and take them upon herself to wear as her own. They both hold scars and brokenness. There's the stain of pain across each of them, and sacrifices have been and will be made in each of their lives. Natasha hasn't made hers yet, but it will be something so plain and simple for her-- a leap she knows will finally eliminate all the red in her ledger and allow her what she's always wanted, a way to give back all the lives she's taken. It will take the killer and turn her into something far greater. When the time comes for her to find out that part of her fate, she will rejoice for it.
That will come in the future, but for now she will cling to Loki as the one person who can see her and hold her through all her darkness-- knowing the light in her heart, and all the untapped potential, as she sees the exact same in him. She may not have known of all the things he had done yet, but she saw all that in him before he told her. Natasha knew that Loki was great enough to be the Lord of Time, before hearing how he became it.
When he pulls her in close and tells her of how much he loves her, she feels her own tears spring to her eyes because it is his love that brings her joy. It is in that love she finds herself most complete. "I never hoped to hear such words. I could never love you more than I do now, Loki. You have always been worthy of my love, and the fact that you love me like this only continues to show the person that you've become and that you are all those things that I've said. In you I am whole, my love."
Brushing his hair back, she holds his face in her hands and nods. "He will know. I promise. He can hold a grudge, but he will see what I do."
Listening to his tale only confirms every little detail that she already knew. It's wild and full of adventure. Parts of it are almost hard to believe. She laughs and cries, and is in awe of all that he's been through with the TVA. The tales of Sylvia, all the Lokis and Mobius. Oh dear goodness, Mobius. All the love and friendship between them, showed exactly how far Loki had come. He sacrificed so much in the loops of time that he went through trying to save everyone, and in the sacrifice he ultimately had to make. Natasha wrapped her arms tight about him by the end, kissing his face over and over. "You. I never knew that you've been through so much my love. That is ... I can barely believe it. How lucky I am that you came back here, and that you found me, and that you love me now. I don't even deserve this. Oh my Loki." She kisses him deeply, and completely, unseated by everything he's gone through, needing him more now than ever.
They truly are kindred spirits when it comes to past misdeeds and their reasons for them. It’s just another example of how they are truly meant for each other. Who else could truly love him and understand him the way she does? In that moment, he knows that he will tell her everything he’s ever done or thought, good and bad, because he knows she will understand and still love him. Just as he will for her. The important part, truly, is that they have come through all of that. They are on the other side now and in much better places, places where they can be together and work together towards making all the worlds safe for everyone they care about and more.
In turn, Loki also thinks Natasha is the perfect person to rule by his side. He truly believes that it takes people with experiences like their own to do this job. They have the strength and the knowledge to understand that there should not be only one way to do things, and that is precisely why ensuring the health of the multiverse is a job they are both uniquely suited to.
Never before has Loki felt so in-tune with someone. When she speaks, it’s like she’s echoing back to him exactly how he feels. It’s rather rare for him to be speechless, but that is exactly what she is doing to him. But for once, it isn’t something that bothers him. He’s secure in the knowledge that she understands him far beyond words. They are connected on such a deeper level than that. So much so that he feels like he need never say a word and she would understand.
As she cradles his face, he offers her a watery but honest smile. He believes her, of course, but he also can’t help but be worried about how his past might affect her. Loki knows she can handle anything that comes and that there is no need to worry about their own relationship, but that doesn't mean he wants to cause her any hardships with the others in her life that mean a lot to her. She deserves to have it all, love and her family.
“You are the only one who knows the full extent of it. I suspect that Mobius and Sylvie had some idea of what I was doing in the time loops, but there was not enough time to explain before I left them. I only hope they can forgive me.” In truth, he is pretty sure Mobius already knows and is fine with it, though Loki at least hope his friend misses him a bit. He honestly has no idea how Sylvie might react though. On one hand she is likely happy that he did what was right and she got the outcome she wanted, even if the TVA wasn’t exactly burned to the ground. But on the other hand, she could be quite volatile and they had not been on the best of terms more recently.
But for the moment, that didn’t matter because he had Natasha in his arms. He held her tight and kissed her for all the world, taking comfort in having her so close.
Pressing away any thoughts of tears from his eyes, Natasha knows that this latest part of his life hasn't been simple. The decision he had to make in the very end tore at his heart, even if it was the best for everyone. It had to hurt. He saved the timeline, but at a cost. All the best things come with a cost. She knows that so very well. "I know where your heart is, and I imagine that your closest friend would understand as well. He knows that your heart is a wide and remarkable place. You would be forgiven there. Sylvie... She is a wild card, but I'd like to hope that she would see happiness for what it is." There's a tender brush at his cheek as she says it.
Holding him tight, Natasha kisses him deeply, and brings her body in tight contact with his, wrapping her body around his. They've spent the majority of the evening talking and with her seared against him completely, she kisses at his neck, licking and running her teeth across it as the first bits of the morning begin to crest over the horizon. There are a million plans to make for the evening, but for now there's nothing that Natasha wants more than to be with Loki.
"What's your favorite thing to have done to you during sex?" She whispers against his chin, licking down along his adam's apple, sucking at the skin there softly, plying him forward into the mood. She knows that they have been enjoying soft intimacy for most the night, but if they are to part to get things ready for the wedding, Natasha would like to be with him one last time before the evening ends.
It’s a new thing really, realizing just how much feeling he’s truly capable of. He’d always been emotional, of course, but he’d also always done his best to try and hide it. Loki has always prided himself on being in control, even if that didn’t always jive with his need for chaos. The truth of it is, he has always wanted to have control, even if that is control over a chaotic situation he’s created.
But the truth of it is, part of why he’s always wanted control is because he always feels wildly out of control. When he was younger, much of the trouble he got into was due to loss of control over his emotions. He always felt hurt, left out, disrespected. Now that he knows better, or at least has had people around him that he knows care, he’s found it easier to sit in his own emotions and release them in a healthier way. As such, he can take their words for what they are, the truth. “I know you are correct. I am sure they will both forgive, and probably have already. I know they care and want me to be happy as much as I wish that for them. I just worry. They were my first real friends and losing them was very hard.”
He relaxes fully as they kiss. One thing he’s learning quite quickly is that she has that ability with him, to almost instantly calm him, making him feel better quickly. It’s a feat only she is able to accomplish and he could never thank her enough.
“My favourite thing?” His voice comes out low, rough and honestly thoughtful. He sighs softly, a little distracted by her mouth even as he tries to answer the question. It doesn’t take long for him to have an answer come to mind, but it’s not something he’s often (or ever) told anyone outright before. “Would you believe I like it when my partner takes control? Tied up and fucked to within an inch of my life. It’s one of the few ways I’ve found I can simply let go.”
After taking her time to assuage him that his friends- both of them should be there for him. She figures she's going to figure out some way to have a woman to woman/loki talk with Sylvie one day before the formal wedding and figure out the best way to get her there. Mobius, the way Loki talked about him, the fondness of tone and voice. Nat has this feeling that he's like her Clint. In another lifetime they might have been more, and it makes her smile and feel only a slightly bit jealous and possessive over her man. How can she not feel that way. He is her perfection personified, and to her Loki is everything, and there are times her brain still panders back and forth feeling like she's not enough.
Listening to him softly admit that he'd like domination more than anything else has her smiling. It's an easy thing. Natasha knows that she's secretly longed for it before. Trusting another person with something so deeply relenting and more, isn't easy. There's a long that they both can give one another that they might not be able to have with another person. Inhaling, Natasha licks over her lips and moves over to flick her tongue against his nipple. "Tied up, hm? I think I've got something that will work for now. It's not going to be the best you've ever had, but it'll do in the moment. I've got a few things that will work for now until we can place a few online orders. "
Biting at his nipple, she kisses it softly and gets up to move naked across the room to her closet and in a drawer in there, she pulls out a long length of red ribbon, and several toys, and a little bit of flavored lube, along with some sturdier stuff. Laying it all out on the bed, she lets Loki go over it all. "Red, Yellow? for safe words, just in case?"
Really, she doesn’t have anything to worry about. Maybe once there had been a spark with Mobius almost as much as there had been with Sylvie, but that had had more to do with how he was at the time. Besides, that was hundreds of years ago and might as well be a million. He only has eyes for her just as she only has eyes for him.
When he sees her smile, he can’t help but smile as well. It’s not something he’s sure he ever would’ve admitted to anyone, but she isn’t just anyone. He trusts her with his life, and he most definitely trusts her with this even if he is somehow still just a little bit embarrassed. It really has nothing to do with her and everything to do with his own issues. Though at the moment, with the way she’s looking at him, he no longer cares.
Her tongue hits his nipple and he can’t stop his gasp. “For now?” His words come out breathlessly as he looks at her with dark eyes. Anything will do, so far as he’s concerned. It’s not something he’s ever considered, trying to buy toys like that. Of course, he’s never had anyone before that he trusts this much, that he would want to do these things with over and over again. So maybe a bit of shopping isn’t the worst idea.
He gasps again at the sharp bite and arches up into it before he can stop himself. When she leaves the bed, he crosses his arms behind his head so he can watch her as she moves. No one moves like she does and he thinks maybe he could be happy simply being able to watch her move for the rest of time. He’s only distracted by the selections she’s laid out for him. She has quite the collection and Loki finds himself running a hand over them. His eye keeps coming back to a particular paddle and a not exactly small dildo, though it’s not the largest either. “Yes, I have heard of that method before. I believe it will work well.”
Possessiveness is not something that Natasha knows how to change or help with when it comes to the man lying out on the bed right now. It's already deeply embedded in her psyche and the very core of her being. She is deeply attached, and if she could become one with him in any permanent way, she would-- their marks will most certainly help with this, she's beginning to realize. It won't ever lessen the look in her eyes, however when she gazes at him in his naked glory. He is her god, her blasphemous savior in this galaxy and every other. He's the one who taught her love, and what it is to know what it is to be completely known and know another.
Running her hands along his body in various ways, Natasha smirks. "Yes, my love, for now. We will do this many times and in many ways. If you like being taken over and tied up, then I will find ways to possess you so that you only remember my name, and that I am your Queen." Sucking deeply on the nipple she'd taken, Natasha sat back, and then when she returned, she ran her fingers over a long strand of purple ribbon. "I need you either on your knees or your stomach, with your arms behind you for this part. It will take me a few minutes to get it proper, but when I have it right, I will tie your legs to the base of the bed. I have small hooks down there."
Nat could have stretched him out spread eagle before her, but she wanted to give him a small modicum of being bound but still comforted by the knowledge he was tied inward. It could be very comforting against the anxiety of being taken over while having no control. Natasha might not have done things like this often, because having the right partner was important, but she had studied the art of bondage deeply. "You are so beautiful. This is going to make it hard to resist fucking you right off the bat."
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Extending the kiss into something deeper, Natasha takes her time with it. It's like every single time she runs her tongue through Loki's mouth, there's a new depth, new flavor to him. He's full of life, and hidden things, velvety richness, dark chocolate covered cherries, and a swirl of brandy by candlelight. Her legs slide along his while they kiss, body unable to accept anything but the ultimate in closeness. It is painful to love this deeply, to need this fully. It's a thirst that won't be quenched, an ache that can't be filled. Breaking the kiss, she moans softly. "I don't think I shall ever grow tired of being a part of you. This is what I've been missing my whole life and I have no idea how I didn't even realize it." Her lips graze over his chin and down his throat.
"Thank you for trusting me, for loving me enough for this. I want to share everything with you. I couldn't imagine doing any of this without you, preparing our lives together is a thing I want to do with you, every single step. I trust you with my all as well, and if you were to take over I'd feel perfectly safe in knowing that no matter what happened would be perfect because what matters most, is us. You and me." Natasha ran her hands over his shoulder, and down his side, cupping his ass. Her fingers gripped at it tightly, holding him close to her.
"You are the only one that could love me like this. I only know part of your life, I can't wait for you to tell me more. Tell me love, how did you start your journey between here and there? What more should I know before we wed?" Her words are almost breathless, but she's trying to distract herself, to keep herself from engaging in other activities just yet. They have so much more to talk about and she really does want to learn more.
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But then she kisses him and he can’t help but melt into it. His lips move slowly against hers, opening up to her so they can taste each other. Loki moves in closer, wrapping his arms around her more tightly so they are flush together as the kiss deepens. It’s like he’s addicted to her, like he can’t possibly imagine ever not having her around again and the only way to keep her is to keep her as close as possible. She feels soft and pliant against him, as if they mesh together perfectly, and he supposes that is the truth. There is no one else for him, and he plans on spending the rest of time showing her exactly how much she means to him.
“Sometimes these things are not for us to know right away. We need to be at certain points in our development before the truly important relationships can develop correctly. If we had come together at any other point in time, it might not have worked and that is not a world I wish to experience.” His head tilts back as he feels her lips on his throat and he sighs happily, a smile on his face.
“I think for us it is best that we do all these things together. We each have our strengths and putting those together will surely create the greatest celebration of a union anyone might ever see, even the parts meant only for us.” So far, he believes they are doing a fine job of it as well. Her style and wants for the ceremony fit his own perfectly, and really, he wants nothing more than for her to have her dream wedding.
If anything, Loki understands the need for distraction, and yet he does nothing but moan and gently kiss her neck for a moment when she grabs his ass. “Well,” he starts, speaking between gentle kisses. “It all started for me when I noticed something strange happen as I was being taken away after you stopped my attack on New York City. It seems some of the Avengers had travelled in time, and as luck would have it, the result ended up with the Tesseract simply lying at my feet, ripe for the taking.”
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While she knows and they have already talked about them meeting at the right time for the both of them. It still feels so remarkable that their fates twisted up to put them together here and now. It had been such a crazy time. They've been working so hard to prepare for Thanos, and what's to come. Yet now she has a higher calling. It's not something that she can rightly fathom. A part of her knows that she still has a part to play in her world, but she's not exactly sure how that will work, as she moves on to become a guardian of time with Loki. It is something they can talk about later.
Rubbing her fingers over his ass, she enjoys the way it feels and knows that one day soon she wants to enjoy it fully the way he enjoyed hers. It's another thing to talk about. "Time travel, huh. I wonder why we were doing that. It must be a thing from the future, because I'm certain I would have been alerted, or would have cracked into the Avenger's database and seen it." She doesn't let it bother her at all. She knows that he's seen time in various forms, so if there's a variation of what happens, it's a twist she looks forward to. "So, back at the old tesseract arrest, huh? What did you do with it just laying there. You picked it up, didn't you. That's what I would have done." It's the smartest move. Getting the fuck out of there with the tesseract. "You're such a wonderful little snake." She kisses him on the nose, knowing he's full of trouble, as he is everything else. "That's a different story from the one we know...Huh. So, is that how you broke time, or whatever it was you did? or I guess we broke time, cause we messed it up and put it at your feet, didn't we."
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And truly, Loki knows just how important Natasha is in hers and many timelines. He has no intention of keeping her from those duties. Simply because the multiverse exists and she will now help guard it with him does not mean she has nothing to wrap up in her own world. He also knows what awaits her, but that is not his story to tell. What he does know is that what will appear like an end to her friends and family will be just the beginning for her. However that happens in her timeline, it doesn’t matter. She will come home to him, always. But he will not further influence her decisions. Even with their souls tied together, she is still her own person and will always be.
The way she touches him makes him grin. He’s having the same thoughts as she is and he is very interested. It might be something for another time, but that doesn’t stop Loki from pushing his ass back into her hand.
“I am sure you will find out what was happening, but I am not one for spoilers.” He’s only partially joking, of course, but he still doesn’t plan on telling her anything of her own future in detail. It’s not his job to affect timelines, only to make sure they have the chance to survive. “And yes, of course I picked it up. I was still very much the villain you knew me as at that point, even if the effects of the mind stone had left me. I was thinking much more clearly, but that does not mean I would not take a chance to get away from the fate I figured was coming.” He grins at the kiss and laughs slightly. “Yes, that was my nexus event, though apparently, what the Avengers did was not considered the breaking of time. In how things worked at the time, it was supposed to happen. I was just not supposed to escape. Winning was not what I was meant to do. At least then.”
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"I am looking forward to what this life together brings us. You are the only person I could ever see spending my eternity with." She's honest and forthcoming. There's an openness in her eyes for him that she's never had with another soul. Perhaps her world was what she cherished before, but she is willing to let go of that path now and seek the one that they have together. She imagines that her timeline probably took a branch the day they made love. She might ask him about it when they make it around to such a topic again. Certainly this wasn't where her life was supposed to go, how her death and future are predicted. Wouldn't that make her a variant as well now? She doesn't quite know how it all works, but she will learn. She's pretty quick at it.
As they talk, her hands wander, the hand on his ass continues to play. When he pushes against her palm, she has no qualms about teasing him further. Her finger is dry and so it can't do much, but she does part his cheeks and run it along the line of them. She pauses at his entrance, and lets it dimple inward briefly. There aren't many men who enjoy such things, but with the way he reacted-- her testing is casual and easy. He can certainly pull away if he wishes.
"I'm sure, but I have a feeling that what we've done already creates a gap." She postulates, not worrying about any future of hers, because she knows that she is safe with Loki as it is. "I did say you were a snake, didn't I." She says with love in her voice, because whoever he was, she's been there too. "Who wants to be arrested, I mean, really. Nexus event. That's a new term. I'll remember it. You start to turn things around, at least from what Thor says. I mean, it's enough that I made the choice to talk to you, to approach you and look what happened. I found an entirely different you. I didn't even know." She leans in to kiss him softly, and then pulls back. "So, where did you go after that? What happened, that's the exciting part of all this, yes?"
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“And I am looking forward to showing you everything. Having you by my side is nothing short of a miracle and together we will preserve all life. I could not see doing this with anyone else.” She is correct about that. Their unification has definitely caused a new branch. One where it is possible that she will not go back to be the sacrifice for the soul stone. Of course, if she wishes to fulfil that destiny, Loki will not stop her. Rather she would simply come to him after her death on the timeline. Otherwise, that branch will do as all others do and find another way to survive. And really he wouldn’t be adverse to helping it along to make sure their mission is still successful.
The last thing he wants to do is pull away. Personally, he disagrees that most men wouldn’t enjoy such treatment. Rather he believes they are afraid of what it might mean to their fragile egos. Of course, he understands that not everyone likes everything when it comes to such personal things, but not liking simply because of being male… well that is expressed by men who have yet to find their prostates.
He blinks slowly and hums as she tests him, his breath coming out in slow pants as he tries to keep his mind on the conversation. He’d be lying though if he said the test wasn’t turning him on. He does nothing more than rock back against her hand again, still attempting to keep things casual.
“You are not wrong, but it is not anything that will cause issues, not anymore.” He grins at the snake comment and presses a kiss to her cheek. “And yes. I suppose it is not just my brother who has an affinity for snakes. Nexus event is the term for when a person makes a decision that causes a branch big enough on the timeline that a whole new timeline comes into existence. My purpose was to be arrested and taken to Asgard, when I did not do that, I was arrested by a completely different authority. But I will get to that in a moment. Thor is correct. It took quite some time and for much to happen, but in the natural course of things, I did redeem myself. I am simply not a version of me that experienced that specific course of events. I am aware of them though.”
“Oh, and do remind me to thank my brother for that. If it is because of his words that you spoke with me, then he played no small part in bringing us together.”
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The night continues to play on as they talk and love, ever growing closer to the sunrise of a new day-- their day. One that both of them will forever hold in memorandum. It gives Natasha even more reason to want to be close to Loki in every way possible, even if she's only toying with him now. It places in her mind limits of things that might happen between them in the future. She wants to be everything he needs and wants in the bedroom, and while she can't change her gender, she can certainly pleasure him to the best of her ability.
"You are so hot. God." She can't help herself when he pushes back against her finger. It makes her own heart jump in her chest and a new fire spark below. She can ignore it, but it's hard with their legs so tangled together and their bodies so close. "I'm glad that we won't create any issues. I would hate to have to worry about us causing problems for you back at where you are now. No matter who you are, or what happened to you, you are the man I love, the heart I adore. I can feel it and all that you are so much deeper than I've ever felt another person. So, whether you lived that life or another one. I'm glad that it brought us together."
She laughed softly. "We can thank him at the wedding, together." She nuzzled against him, and pressed her lips softly against his. "So, after you were taken away what happened. Who took you?"
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Really, he couldn’t ask for anything more. Just that they can do this. Lie around in each other’s arms, talking about the future, their future, laughing and loving and simply being together. Until that night when he’d decided to message her, wanting her to know that he is sorry for the things he did in their shared past, he’d been almost desperate for some companionship. He has some contact with the TVA, but with Mobius’ retirement, he hasn’t felt overly close to anyone there. He is happy for his friend, but he also misses having someone to talk to. Or rather he missed, past tense, but Natasha is that for him now and so much more.
He really could never thank her enough, or show her just how much he truly cares for her.
She truly does not have to worry about not pleasing him physically. He can’t imagine being more satisfied than he already is in her bed. The fact that she is willing to do more only proves that point. Even if she is not interested in trying such things with him, how they have been with each other this night alone is proof enough that she is everything he will ever need. When it comes down to it, Loki falls in love with people, not their gender.
Loki chuckles lightly and presses his face into the pillow. He’s not unaware that some find him attractive, but he’s unsure anyone has said it quite so bluntly to his face before. He absolutely adores it. “No,” he says, turning his face back to look at her again. “There is nothing to worry about at all, my love. I cannot tell you how happy I am to hear you say all of that. I have worked very hard to improve myself and to know that I might be worthy of you has brought me to new heights. I have never felt so connected to anyone before. That you feel the same is more than I ever could’ve hoped for.”
“I’m sure he will be delighted to hear it.” Thor always was a bit of a romantic. Loki savours their kiss some before continuing. “I was taken by the Time Variance Authority, or more simply, the TVA. They are an organization that exists outside of time and at that point their purpose was to maintain what they called the Sacred Timeline. Essentially, there was no multiverse because they prevented the main timeline from branching off into new possibilities. They were all under the impression that this was necessary to prevent a multiversal war. Anyone who did something to cause a branch, a nexus point, were rounded up and brought in. As you can imagine, me escaping Thor’s custody was a pretty large deviation.”
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Watching Loki press his face into the pillow makes Natasha laugh softly with him. He's so beautiful, and maybe he knows a part of it, but because she's fallen so deeply for him it only makes him that much more attractive to her. There is not another male or female out there that will ever compare to the star that he is in her sky. Nuzzling against his shoulder, his neck, she curls under his chin and inhales deeply, breathing Loki in and making him the very air she needed to survive. He was her salvation, her world, inside and out and there was nothing that would change that. "You are so much to me, and I still keep wanting to pinch myself to make sure all this is real. I mean, morning can't come soon enough. I need to be bound to you already."
Sighing softly, she lifted her head so she could look at him, taking in all the closeness implied by the way they kiss one another. She laughed again, shaking her head. "You caused a hell of a ruckus with that I'm sure. So they arrested you? I mean, if that's what they do. Does it happen a lot? Do people screw up the timeline a lot? I know we are, but wow.. I never thought about it..."
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He doesn’t know about being beautiful, especially next to someone as exquisite as she is. Again, he’s aware that some find him attractive, but to him beauty is so much more than looks. Natasha isn’t just gorgeous to look at, she’s beautiful inside. Loki is aware that she might not know that based on some of her history, but he’ll make it one of his goals to show her just how beautiful she is. He knows just how much she has devoted to making things better in her world, how much she has done for friends and family and really, her universe at large. She is truly an outstanding person that he could not be any less proud of.
As she curls into him, he shifts and wraps an arm around her, holding her close. He feels so at peace in her arms, and he knows that she will always be home to him. No matter what their future may hold, she will be his constant. “I feel the same, my love. I almost wish I felt tired so we could pass the time more quickly by sleeping, but I feel more energized than ever before. I am a buzz with excitement and how much I love you.”
Turning with her as she shifts, Loki smiles at her in return. “Yes, they arrested me. And it is what they did at the time. It was a fairly common occurrence, though it was more common for certain types. As you can imagine, someone like myself is more apt to go against the grain, as it were. I met plenty of my own variants, but I imagine you would not be surprised that I did not see a single Steve Rogers.”
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Pressing her breasts against his chest, she finds comfort in the hardness of his body and in the way he's sculpted against her curves. Their legs curve together perfectly, and she knows that they will always match together in every other aspect as well. No matter what they do, it will always be this way. "I'm sure if we get bored, we'll manage to make it pass more quickly. I have my stories, but somehow I have this feeling that you know them. At least most of my barriers are gone. You've melted them all away." She kissed along the edges of his lips, and then down along his chin and across his chest where she'd been resting her head. He was beautiful because she loved him, and in her eye that was all that mattered. He could have been an ogre and she still would have found him as beautiful as a golden sun.
She laughed against his skin. "Steve. I bet he might have changed a few timelines after he went after Peggy. I still think there has to be at least one where he didn't leave Bucky." She always wondered if he would have stayed if Bucky asked him to. They had done so much for one another, and their friendship was sometimes beyond that of two friends, platonic soulmates she often thought of them. "Not that it matters. So, you were a wild and crazy thing, and had a thrilling ride through the timelines? Meeting yourself? That had to be awkward."
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He sighs, contented as he feels her press against him. There truly is no better feeling that lying there with her, entwined and relaxed as they talk of their plans and their future together. “I cannot imagine being bored with you around, but I do imagine there are ways to make the time pass more quickly.” Plenty of fun and interesting ways, he’s quite sure. “I do know your stories, but I do not know them from your perspective. I would love to hear your thoughts on anything you wish to tell me about.” It wasn’t the same, seeing something from a distance and getting someone’s personal view. He also thinks that it would help him know her even better, if that is even possible.
“You would think so, but apparently all of that was ‘supposed’ to happen.” The quotes are practically audible in his tone. Mostly Loki has let his issues with He Who Remained go, but it still bothers him just a little bit that the Avengers were allowed certain concessions that others were not. But that is why he does what he does. So that everyone has the same options and opportunities without the threat of a multiversal war. “Oh, there are plenty now where he doesn’t leave Bucky. Sometimes they simply remain friends, others where they are more. It is quite interesting. Plenty I had not expected from the Captain. I was glad to find he has so much more going on inside him that it appears on the outside. He laughs then and nods. “It was more frustrating than awkward. I really did not know how annoying I can be.”
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In this direction, he was the match to her soul and somehow lifted her from the mire of her life. He allowed her to see that she could move beyond that without dying a death for the universe. She found a purpose and meaning that would allow her to remove all that sticky red business from her ledger within him, and he filled her without a second thought. Already within him, she felt more pure than she had ever found herself feeling before. Maybe it was because they'd both been through it, and they were perfect for one another. Their bodies knew it and their love did, because it would encompass so much.
"Then I will start from the beginning. My father gave me away to the Red Room, sold me rather so that I could train to become a soviet spy, a super soviet spy. They took advantage of me in every way imaginable. They used my body, my mind, and my preyed on my emotions. I became the ultimate actor, seductress, and killer from a young age. They used their equipment to give me false memories, some I still have here in my brain. I know how to dance like a ballerina, although I never was one. They killed my mother for the simple act of looking for me." She moved against him, finding it easier to tell the story if he was even more flush against her body, as if they could be any closer. Maybe it would be easier if he was already inside her. Running her body against his, Nat sighed softly.
"And you, you broke time and then put it back together again? Did you almost destroy the world while you were fixing it. I know you had to have gotten in trouble once you got to the time agency. That's the only way any one could ever reform you the way they have." Natasha was carefully wise, and brushed her fingers through his hair, laughing a little when he mentioned how annoying he could be. "We can all be annoying when we choose to, my love."
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But they had, and as a result, they had both learned and grown and now they got to impart their wisdom on the whole multiverse, even if most people never knew what they did for them. Loki didn’t need that kind of recognition anymore and he suspects that Natasha never did.
What he does suspect though, is that they both were good people underneath it all and always had been. He has just as much red in his ledger as she does, they only came about it differently. In fact, he thinks she has always been a much better person than he has been. A lot of what brought the red for Loki was his own spoiled nature. Sure, there had been reasons behind some of his actions. Odin and even Frigga had not been faultless in how Loki had acted, but Loki also now knew how to take responsibility for his own actions. It’s one of the many reasons why he thrives in his current role. It’s finally a chance for him to truly redeem himself.
Something he knows Natasha wants as well, even if he doesn’t think she needs it, not after all she has done for the Earth as an Avenger.
She doesn’t need to ask, he pulls her closer without even thinking about it as she tells her story. He knew the basics, that she was a Russian spy, and had been trained from a very young age, but that her father had sold her, or her mother was killed for trying to find her. Those things Loki had not gone looking for. He was fully capable of seeing the lives of anyone and everyone he knew, but mostly he let everyone keep their privacy, only looking in on his friends every now and then, ostensibly to keep an eye on them, but really because he missed them.
”Is it wrong that I would like to find the right place in time and murder your father for such a crime?” He knows full well that he wouldn’t have Natasha like this if such things had not happened, but he also hates the idea of anyone hurting her. He also has a mind to go blow up a couple of Red Rooms. And not just for her, but for everyone they tortured like that.
Loki laughs then, relaxing again as the topic of their conversation changes back to that of the TVA. “Of course I almost broke time. On more than one occasion really, but really most of my redemption is due to one person. Apparently, all I needed was one person to believe in me. Though I still very much tested him. It also didn’t hurt being taken away from everyone and everything that had me feeling as I did. That separation allowed me to clear my mind and figure out what I actually wanted and believed. Strange how these things work, isn’t it?”
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Giving it all up to work and somehow maintain the balance of the universe sounds magical to Natasha. It is a way to bring about wonder in her life while relinquishing the bonds that have held her tight for so long.
"My father is long gone, I think. I don't even know his name. He's not a man to me. No one raised me. I have no father. I have no mother, only a sister. My sestrah, Yelena. She is my home in this earth, aside from you. It is okay though. I am certain she will be happy for me. We only spent three years together as a spy family even if she didn't know. I - I was pulled from that life by Barton, that's why he and I were close, why he was so fucking special to me. We had a night in a sewer. I- I knew I felt something for him then, but I knew he wanted a family, and I couldn't ever give him that.
My love changed across time, to that of a best friend, and I knew I'd never truly love as one might deserve anything - that's why you challenged all that, changed all that." She'd already blown up the Red Room as it was, and freed the majority of the widows like her all over the world when she did. It had taken a lot of work, and almost killed her, but she managed with the help of her pseudo-family.
"You could do it if anyone." She nuzzles him, and kisses him softly, cupping his cheek. "I'm so proud of you. So you found your person then? Who is this mysterious person who believed in you? It's a wondrous story for certain."
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Or at least that was how it seemed until he’d found out about Kang’s plan for him. If anyone were truly to blame, it was him. Even if most of his variants had acted much worse, Loki knew that if he’d tried to be better sooner, he just would’ve been found by the TVA much earlier.
“I know. I just hate that someone that should care for you instead caused you such strife.” There, of course, was also the part where Loki has some daddy issues still, but he didn’t think of it like that at the moment. “You are a wonderful person, strong and dedicated. Not just anyone would be able to turn themselves around as you did, even if it did take some help. We all need help sometimes. But to think anyone treated you like that and put you in such a place. It fills me with anger.”
Loki quieted as Natasha spoke of Clint. Guilt filled him as he remembered so clearly how he had used him for his own misdeeds. Even if much of that had been due to the staff and Thanos, Loki knew he’d played his own part there. He’d hardly fought when the Other had found him after his fall from the Bifrost. A true hero would have.
“I am truly sorry for what I did to your friend. I do hope you know that. I hope it does not affect him attending our wedding.” And not just because he wanted everyone who loved Natasha to come celebrate with her, but because he wished to apologize to the man face to face.
Loki held her closer as she asked of Mobius. He did miss his friend dearly. “His name is Mobius and he is the last person you might expect I would be friends with. He appears rather boring, stiff and stuck in his ways, but there is so much more to him. I hope you will be able to meet him soon. I would love to have him stand by my side during our more public ceremony.” Loki would tell her anything and everything about his friend that night. How he was the first person to really believe him and believe in him. In some ways, he had been like a real father to him, but mostly Loki just considered him the best friend anyone could have.
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It was easy to take the cup and drink from it, and while Loki did it here and there, it was often with the driving need to be truly taken seriously, to be loved and noticed as the other members in his family did Thor. Natasha could see his heart now, and knew that there were light and dark in them both and for various reasons. However, the light cast out the seeds of darkness that had been sewn by lesser forces. Their demons played well together, as did their angels.
They fit so perfectly, their eternities were fated to wind together forever in a never ending loop of love, one to see the other as strong and the other there to help protect that what made them so. "I feel so much the same, my love. I dare say that I want to hurt those who cast you aside, who told you that you were anything less than the amazing man that I know you are. You are intelligent, cunning, and wise, even when you wish to ignore it at times." She teased him about the last part with a nose to his cheek. God she loved him.
Stroking her hand along his hip in a dancing circle, Natasha watched her fingers as he spoke of his regrets about Clint. She shook her head. The past was the past, and they both had their fingers in things they'd done wrong. "He will see and know that you are not the same. If I love you like this, he will know and stand at my side the same way your Mobius will stand beside yours."
Natasha had no strong female friends, and she'd rather have Clint at her side in her wedding over anyone else. The story of how Loki came to meet and know Mobius was incredible, and his time spent finding his purpose was terrifying, but also awe inspiring. If Natasha didn't already love him, she grew to love him more. "So, what happened then, in the end? Explain that part to me again? I don't get it all..." It was a little confusing -- the hows and whys of how he exactly saved the universes and ended up governing them all. She also was curious about her part in all this now.
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He had also given into the darkness the moment he’d let go of the Bifrost bridge, letting the Void take him. He’d believed, in that moment when it had become clear that Odin could never see his side, that he was nothing but a burden to his family and that letting go would be better than the eternity he would spend in the cells of Asgard.
She was right though. Deep down, those were the root causes of his reactions. His desperate need to be as loved and respected as his brother. It had always been a foolish pursuit though, he simply had not known it. Not that it would have mattered at all, not with how the TVA had been running things at the time.
As she speaks of what she sees in him, he can’t help but pull her closer, burying his face in her hair as he feels tears prick at his eyes. How long as he waited to hear such words? Mobius had started it by telling him he could be good, or anything he wanted to be, and Natasha has finished it with words that grip his heart, making him feel more loved than he ever could’ve expected. “I could not love you anymore than I do in this moment, my dear. I… thank you. You do not know what your words mean to me.”
He pulls back then, giving her a bit of a watery smile as she speaks of Clint. “I do hope you are right. I was truly awful to him and I would not expect him to forgive me. I hope one day to be able to show him just how much I have changed though.”
With a nod, he begins to explain, this time in detail. He goes over how Mobius recruited him from Renslayer’s court, and all about Sylvie and everything she’d been doing. His betrayal of Mobius when he had no other option, discovering the truth of the TVA. How the Time Keepers were not real. The pain he’d felt when Mobius had been pruned right in front of him just after he’d finally believed. And so on, the fight with Kang and Sylvie, his journey back to the TVA, the time slipping. He left out no detail, including the sacrifice he’d made and how hard it had been to watch Mobius and Sylvie’s reaction as they realized what he was to do. And how much harder it had been to turn away and begin his job.
“It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. It took a long time, if you can count it as time, for me to be able to do things like coming to visit you here. I have not brought myself to speak with any of them again as there is only one I can bring back with me, and I do not wish to disrupt their lives further. I only hope they are not too upset when I invite them to our wedding.”
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That will come in the future, but for now she will cling to Loki as the one person who can see her and hold her through all her darkness-- knowing the light in her heart, and all the untapped potential, as she sees the exact same in him. She may not have known of all the things he had done yet, but she saw all that in him before he told her. Natasha knew that Loki was great enough to be the Lord of Time, before hearing how he became it.
When he pulls her in close and tells her of how much he loves her, she feels her own tears spring to her eyes because it is his love that brings her joy. It is in that love she finds herself most complete. "I never hoped to hear such words. I could never love you more than I do now, Loki. You have always been worthy of my love, and the fact that you love me like this only continues to show the person that you've become and that you are all those things that I've said. In you I am whole, my love."
Brushing his hair back, she holds his face in her hands and nods. "He will know. I promise. He can hold a grudge, but he will see what I do."
Listening to his tale only confirms every little detail that she already knew. It's wild and full of adventure. Parts of it are almost hard to believe. She laughs and cries, and is in awe of all that he's been through with the TVA. The tales of Sylvia, all the Lokis and Mobius. Oh dear goodness, Mobius. All the love and friendship between them, showed exactly how far Loki had come. He sacrificed so much in the loops of time that he went through trying to save everyone, and in the sacrifice he ultimately had to make. Natasha wrapped her arms tight about him by the end, kissing his face over and over. "You. I never knew that you've been through so much my love. That is ... I can barely believe it. How lucky I am that you came back here, and that you found me, and that you love me now. I don't even deserve this. Oh my Loki." She kisses him deeply, and completely, unseated by everything he's gone through, needing him more now than ever.
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In turn, Loki also thinks Natasha is the perfect person to rule by his side. He truly believes that it takes people with experiences like their own to do this job. They have the strength and the knowledge to understand that there should not be only one way to do things, and that is precisely why ensuring the health of the multiverse is a job they are both uniquely suited to.
Never before has Loki felt so in-tune with someone. When she speaks, it’s like she’s echoing back to him exactly how he feels. It’s rather rare for him to be speechless, but that is exactly what she is doing to him. But for once, it isn’t something that bothers him. He’s secure in the knowledge that she understands him far beyond words. They are connected on such a deeper level than that. So much so that he feels like he need never say a word and she would understand.
As she cradles his face, he offers her a watery but honest smile. He believes her, of course, but he also can’t help but be worried about how his past might affect her. Loki knows she can handle anything that comes and that there is no need to worry about their own relationship, but that doesn't mean he wants to cause her any hardships with the others in her life that mean a lot to her. She deserves to have it all, love and her family.
“You are the only one who knows the full extent of it. I suspect that Mobius and Sylvie had some idea of what I was doing in the time loops, but there was not enough time to explain before I left them. I only hope they can forgive me.” In truth, he is pretty sure Mobius already knows and is fine with it, though Loki at least hope his friend misses him a bit. He honestly has no idea how Sylvie might react though. On one hand she is likely happy that he did what was right and she got the outcome she wanted, even if the TVA wasn’t exactly burned to the ground. But on the other hand, she could be quite volatile and they had not been on the best of terms more recently.
But for the moment, that didn’t matter because he had Natasha in his arms. He held her tight and kissed her for all the world, taking comfort in having her so close.
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Holding him tight, Natasha kisses him deeply, and brings her body in tight contact with his, wrapping her body around his. They've spent the majority of the evening talking and with her seared against him completely, she kisses at his neck, licking and running her teeth across it as the first bits of the morning begin to crest over the horizon. There are a million plans to make for the evening, but for now there's nothing that Natasha wants more than to be with Loki.
"What's your favorite thing to have done to you during sex?" She whispers against his chin, licking down along his adam's apple, sucking at the skin there softly, plying him forward into the mood. She knows that they have been enjoying soft intimacy for most the night, but if they are to part to get things ready for the wedding, Natasha would like to be with him one last time before the evening ends.
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But the truth of it is, part of why he’s always wanted control is because he always feels wildly out of control. When he was younger, much of the trouble he got into was due to loss of control over his emotions. He always felt hurt, left out, disrespected. Now that he knows better, or at least has had people around him that he knows care, he’s found it easier to sit in his own emotions and release them in a healthier way. As such, he can take their words for what they are, the truth. “I know you are correct. I am sure they will both forgive, and probably have already. I know they care and want me to be happy as much as I wish that for them. I just worry. They were my first real friends and losing them was very hard.”
He relaxes fully as they kiss. One thing he’s learning quite quickly is that she has that ability with him, to almost instantly calm him, making him feel better quickly. It’s a feat only she is able to accomplish and he could never thank her enough.
“My favourite thing?” His voice comes out low, rough and honestly thoughtful. He sighs softly, a little distracted by her mouth even as he tries to answer the question. It doesn’t take long for him to have an answer come to mind, but it’s not something he’s often (or ever) told anyone outright before. “Would you believe I like it when my partner takes control? Tied up and fucked to within an inch of my life. It’s one of the few ways I’ve found I can simply let go.”
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Listening to him softly admit that he'd like domination more than anything else has her smiling. It's an easy thing. Natasha knows that she's secretly longed for it before. Trusting another person with something so deeply relenting and more, isn't easy. There's a long that they both can give one another that they might not be able to have with another person. Inhaling, Natasha licks over her lips and moves over to flick her tongue against his nipple. "Tied up, hm? I think I've got something that will work for now. It's not going to be the best you've ever had, but it'll do in the moment. I've got a few things that will work for now until we can place a few online orders. "
Biting at his nipple, she kisses it softly and gets up to move naked across the room to her closet and in a drawer in there, she pulls out a long length of red ribbon, and several toys, and a little bit of flavored lube, along with some sturdier stuff. Laying it all out on the bed, she lets Loki go over it all. "Red, Yellow? for safe words, just in case?"
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When he sees her smile, he can’t help but smile as well. It’s not something he’s sure he ever would’ve admitted to anyone, but she isn’t just anyone. He trusts her with his life, and he most definitely trusts her with this even if he is somehow still just a little bit embarrassed. It really has nothing to do with her and everything to do with his own issues. Though at the moment, with the way she’s looking at him, he no longer cares.
Her tongue hits his nipple and he can’t stop his gasp. “For now?” His words come out breathlessly as he looks at her with dark eyes. Anything will do, so far as he’s concerned. It’s not something he’s ever considered, trying to buy toys like that. Of course, he’s never had anyone before that he trusts this much, that he would want to do these things with over and over again. So maybe a bit of shopping isn’t the worst idea.
He gasps again at the sharp bite and arches up into it before he can stop himself. When she leaves the bed, he crosses his arms behind his head so he can watch her as she moves. No one moves like she does and he thinks maybe he could be happy simply being able to watch her move for the rest of time. He’s only distracted by the selections she’s laid out for him. She has quite the collection and Loki finds himself running a hand over them. His eye keeps coming back to a particular paddle and a not exactly small dildo, though it’s not the largest either. “Yes, I have heard of that method before. I believe it will work well.”
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Running her hands along his body in various ways, Natasha smirks. "Yes, my love, for now. We will do this many times and in many ways. If you like being taken over and tied up, then I will find ways to possess you so that you only remember my name, and that I am your Queen." Sucking deeply on the nipple she'd taken, Natasha sat back, and then when she returned, she ran her fingers over a long strand of purple ribbon. "I need you either on your knees or your stomach, with your arms behind you for this part. It will take me a few minutes to get it proper, but when I have it right, I will tie your legs to the base of the bed. I have small hooks down there."
Nat could have stretched him out spread eagle before her, but she wanted to give him a small modicum of being bound but still comforted by the knowledge he was tied inward. It could be very comforting against the anxiety of being taken over while having no control. Natasha might not have done things like this often, because having the right partner was important, but she had studied the art of bondage deeply. "You are so beautiful. This is going to make it hard to resist fucking you right off the bat."
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