Loki would appreciate such thoughts about him, but he doesn’t think they are warranted. He did give into the power. He had attacked Stuttgart and New York because Thanos had told him he could rule. He had taken the staff to have more power, to control the Chitauri. Though apparently he unknowingly had much of those powers already. He knows now that the staff had affected him, it had made him more susceptible to persuasion, something he had not previously thought possible. But infinity stones out in the world were nothing to trifle with.
He had also given into the darkness the moment he’d let go of the Bifrost bridge, letting the Void take him. He’d believed, in that moment when it had become clear that Odin could never see his side, that he was nothing but a burden to his family and that letting go would be better than the eternity he would spend in the cells of Asgard.
She was right though. Deep down, those were the root causes of his reactions. His desperate need to be as loved and respected as his brother. It had always been a foolish pursuit though, he simply had not known it. Not that it would have mattered at all, not with how the TVA had been running things at the time.
As she speaks of what she sees in him, he can’t help but pull her closer, burying his face in her hair as he feels tears prick at his eyes. How long as he waited to hear such words? Mobius had started it by telling him he could be good, or anything he wanted to be, and Natasha has finished it with words that grip his heart, making him feel more loved than he ever could’ve expected. “I could not love you anymore than I do in this moment, my dear. I… thank you. You do not know what your words mean to me.”
He pulls back then, giving her a bit of a watery smile as she speaks of Clint. “I do hope you are right. I was truly awful to him and I would not expect him to forgive me. I hope one day to be able to show him just how much I have changed though.”
With a nod, he begins to explain, this time in detail. He goes over how Mobius recruited him from Renslayer’s court, and all about Sylvie and everything she’d been doing. His betrayal of Mobius when he had no other option, discovering the truth of the TVA. How the Time Keepers were not real. The pain he’d felt when Mobius had been pruned right in front of him just after he’d finally believed. And so on, the fight with Kang and Sylvie, his journey back to the TVA, the time slipping. He left out no detail, including the sacrifice he’d made and how hard it had been to watch Mobius and Sylvie’s reaction as they realized what he was to do. And how much harder it had been to turn away and begin his job.
“It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. It took a long time, if you can count it as time, for me to be able to do things like coming to visit you here. I have not brought myself to speak with any of them again as there is only one I can bring back with me, and I do not wish to disrupt their lives further. I only hope they are not too upset when I invite them to our wedding.”
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He had also given into the darkness the moment he’d let go of the Bifrost bridge, letting the Void take him. He’d believed, in that moment when it had become clear that Odin could never see his side, that he was nothing but a burden to his family and that letting go would be better than the eternity he would spend in the cells of Asgard.
She was right though. Deep down, those were the root causes of his reactions. His desperate need to be as loved and respected as his brother. It had always been a foolish pursuit though, he simply had not known it. Not that it would have mattered at all, not with how the TVA had been running things at the time.
As she speaks of what she sees in him, he can’t help but pull her closer, burying his face in her hair as he feels tears prick at his eyes. How long as he waited to hear such words? Mobius had started it by telling him he could be good, or anything he wanted to be, and Natasha has finished it with words that grip his heart, making him feel more loved than he ever could’ve expected. “I could not love you anymore than I do in this moment, my dear. I… thank you. You do not know what your words mean to me.”
He pulls back then, giving her a bit of a watery smile as she speaks of Clint. “I do hope you are right. I was truly awful to him and I would not expect him to forgive me. I hope one day to be able to show him just how much I have changed though.”
With a nod, he begins to explain, this time in detail. He goes over how Mobius recruited him from Renslayer’s court, and all about Sylvie and everything she’d been doing. His betrayal of Mobius when he had no other option, discovering the truth of the TVA. How the Time Keepers were not real. The pain he’d felt when Mobius had been pruned right in front of him just after he’d finally believed. And so on, the fight with Kang and Sylvie, his journey back to the TVA, the time slipping. He left out no detail, including the sacrifice he’d made and how hard it had been to watch Mobius and Sylvie’s reaction as they realized what he was to do. And how much harder it had been to turn away and begin his job.
“It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. It took a long time, if you can count it as time, for me to be able to do things like coming to visit you here. I have not brought myself to speak with any of them again as there is only one I can bring back with me, and I do not wish to disrupt their lives further. I only hope they are not too upset when I invite them to our wedding.”