Breaking the rules could be fun. If anyone knew that, it was definitely Loki. But what breaking the rules never did was get you what you wanted or needed. Breaking the rules was something fun for kids. Sneaking out after curfew, drinking before you were allowed, skipping class. In general, rather harmless and let you have a little fun. What didn’t work was breaking rules for the important things. That is a lesson that is much harder to learn, and he’s sure both he and Natasha caused a lot of issues while they did so.
But they had, and as a result, they had both learned and grown and now they got to impart their wisdom on the whole multiverse, even if most people never knew what they did for them. Loki didn’t need that kind of recognition anymore and he suspects that Natasha never did.
What he does suspect though, is that they both were good people underneath it all and always had been. He has just as much red in his ledger as she does, they only came about it differently. In fact, he thinks she has always been a much better person than he has been. A lot of what brought the red for Loki was his own spoiled nature. Sure, there had been reasons behind some of his actions. Odin and even Frigga had not been faultless in how Loki had acted, but Loki also now knew how to take responsibility for his own actions. It’s one of the many reasons why he thrives in his current role. It’s finally a chance for him to truly redeem himself.
Something he knows Natasha wants as well, even if he doesn’t think she needs it, not after all she has done for the Earth as an Avenger.
She doesn’t need to ask, he pulls her closer without even thinking about it as she tells her story. He knew the basics, that she was a Russian spy, and had been trained from a very young age, but that her father had sold her, or her mother was killed for trying to find her. Those things Loki had not gone looking for. He was fully capable of seeing the lives of anyone and everyone he knew, but mostly he let everyone keep their privacy, only looking in on his friends every now and then, ostensibly to keep an eye on them, but really because he missed them.
”Is it wrong that I would like to find the right place in time and murder your father for such a crime?” He knows full well that he wouldn’t have Natasha like this if such things had not happened, but he also hates the idea of anyone hurting her. He also has a mind to go blow up a couple of Red Rooms. And not just for her, but for everyone they tortured like that.
Loki laughs then, relaxing again as the topic of their conversation changes back to that of the TVA. “Of course I almost broke time. On more than one occasion really, but really most of my redemption is due to one person. Apparently, all I needed was one person to believe in me. Though I still very much tested him. It also didn’t hurt being taken away from everyone and everything that had me feeling as I did. That separation allowed me to clear my mind and figure out what I actually wanted and believed. Strange how these things work, isn’t it?”
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But they had, and as a result, they had both learned and grown and now they got to impart their wisdom on the whole multiverse, even if most people never knew what they did for them. Loki didn’t need that kind of recognition anymore and he suspects that Natasha never did.
What he does suspect though, is that they both were good people underneath it all and always had been. He has just as much red in his ledger as she does, they only came about it differently. In fact, he thinks she has always been a much better person than he has been. A lot of what brought the red for Loki was his own spoiled nature. Sure, there had been reasons behind some of his actions. Odin and even Frigga had not been faultless in how Loki had acted, but Loki also now knew how to take responsibility for his own actions. It’s one of the many reasons why he thrives in his current role. It’s finally a chance for him to truly redeem himself.
Something he knows Natasha wants as well, even if he doesn’t think she needs it, not after all she has done for the Earth as an Avenger.
She doesn’t need to ask, he pulls her closer without even thinking about it as she tells her story. He knew the basics, that she was a Russian spy, and had been trained from a very young age, but that her father had sold her, or her mother was killed for trying to find her. Those things Loki had not gone looking for. He was fully capable of seeing the lives of anyone and everyone he knew, but mostly he let everyone keep their privacy, only looking in on his friends every now and then, ostensibly to keep an eye on them, but really because he missed them.
”Is it wrong that I would like to find the right place in time and murder your father for such a crime?” He knows full well that he wouldn’t have Natasha like this if such things had not happened, but he also hates the idea of anyone hurting her. He also has a mind to go blow up a couple of Red Rooms. And not just for her, but for everyone they tortured like that.
Loki laughs then, relaxing again as the topic of their conversation changes back to that of the TVA. “Of course I almost broke time. On more than one occasion really, but really most of my redemption is due to one person. Apparently, all I needed was one person to believe in me. Though I still very much tested him. It also didn’t hurt being taken away from everyone and everything that had me feeling as I did. That separation allowed me to clear my mind and figure out what I actually wanted and believed. Strange how these things work, isn’t it?”